歌手：郭静 专辑：下一个天亮
她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她的一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留
我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动
我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多
P/s: Nice song. =)
Anguish. Frustrated.
Such a dead end now. What’s more to talk about in life?
Anyone understands?
Have you ever felt that you’ll never live that long to see future (e.g having a boyfriend, getting married and have children)?
Have you ever felt that you can’t go any further?
Have you ever felt that your living without a soul in you?
My world is silent.
Only me, myself and my shadow.
Why would life goes on?
What reasons do I have?
None.
Tittle: Byebye
Artist: Mariah Carey
Album: E=MC2
This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn’t get it
But you kept me in line
I didn’t know why
You didn’t show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I’m glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There’s so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it’s true that you’ve
Reached a better place
Still I’d give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it’s like you’re gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
You never got a chance to see
How good I’ve done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You’d make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact
You’re gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it’s true that you’ve
Reached a better place
Still I’d give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it’s like you’re gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye, bye.
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on I wish
I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it’s true that you’ve
Reached a better place
Still I’d give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it’s like you’re gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say
Bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye
P/s: byebye…
YANGON (AFP) - - More than 22,000 people have been killed and 41,000 left missing after a powerful cyclone hit Myanmar last weekend, state television announced late Tuesday.
Aid workers were racing to deliver food and water to the southern coast which was submerged by floodwaters, leaving scenes of utter devastation and desperate homeless survivors running low on food and clean water.
But with the clock ticking four days after the storm hit, Myanmar’s reclusive military rulers insisted foreign aid experts would still have to negotiate with the government to be allowed into the isolated nation.
The government also said it would proceed this weekend with a constitutional referendum as part of its slow-moving "road map" to democracy, except in the areas hardest hit by the disaster.
In its first news conference since Tropical Cyclone Nargis barrelled into the Irrawaddy river delta early Saturday, the government said many people died from a 12-foot (3.5-metre) tidal wave that slammed into the area.
Social Welfare Minister Maung Maung Swe told reporters that most of the town of Bogalay, one of the delta areas that bore the brunt of the storm’s force, had simply been washed away.
"Ninety-five percent of the houses in Bogalay were destroyed," he said. "Many people were killed in a 12-foot tidal wave."
Satellite images from US space agency NASA showed virtually the entire coastal plain of the country, once known as Burma and now one of the poorest nations on the planet, under water.
The New Light of Myanmar newspaper, which like all media in this impovershed nation is strictly controlled by the junta, had earlier said that 15,000 people were killed.
But it was not known how precise that toll could be given the scope of the destruction. Phone and electricity are not working in many areas, and roads in some places — where they even existed — are wiped out.
Christian relief organisation World Vision, one of the few international agencies allowed to work inside Myanmar, said its teams had flown over the most affected regions and witnessed horrific scenes on the ground below.
"They saw the dead bodies from the helicopters, so it’s quite overwhelming," Kyi Minn, an adviser to World Vision’s office in Myanmar’s main city of Yangon, told AFP in Thailand by telephone.
"The impact of the disaster could be worse than the (2004 Asian) tsunami because it is compounded by the limited availability of resources on top of the transport constraints," he said.
Aid groups were rushing to bring food, clean water, clothing and shelter into the country, whose military rulers have long spurned most of the outside world — and prevented many aid groups from operating in the isolated nation.
In Geneva, the United Nations said it had a disaster-assessment team in neighbouring Thailand still awaiting entry visas — while the government underlined that foreign relief experts would not be allowed in automatically.
"For expert teams from overseas to come here, they have to negotiate with the foreign ministry and our senior authorities," Maung Maung Swe said.
Relief officials warned that as time went on, fears were mounting about the risk of disease — on top of the logistical problems of getting aid to many regions that are both remote and densely populated.
"Getting it out to the affected populations will be a major challenge, given that there is widespread flooding," said Richard Horsey, a spokesman for the UN Office for the Coordination of Humanitarian Affairs in Bangkok.
"The urgent need is for shelter and for water. Without clean drinking water, the risk of disease spreading is the most serious concern."
The UN’s food agency meanwhile said that the destruction also threatened rice exports, which it was hoped would ease shortages in Sri Lanka and Bangladesh amid soaring global food prices.
Brigadier General Kyaw Hsan, the secretive regime’s information minister, said the country was "greatly thankful" for the offers of help that have been pouring in.
But US First Lady Laura Bush, a longtime critic of the military that has run the country for 46 years, said the government had not done enough to warn citizens that the storm was approaching.
The UN’s disaster reduction agency was also critical.
"Looking at the number of deaths, it leads us to think that an early warning system had not been put in place," an agency spokeswoman said. "Obviously many people did not have time to evacuate."
Oh my god! This is so bad sia. What a wave that hit Myanmar! And it only hits Myanmar. Sad sia. God bless them. What fears most is the power of the mother nature. It hits you without giving any warning. Well, let just hope that things get better and faster & more aids will go to Myanmar. So people who are like me right now, still being able to type infront the computor at this very moment should be thankful! Be thankful and treasure what you’ve now!
Corrinne May - Little Superhero Girl
I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole *wide* world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don’t know where to *turn*
I’ve got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore
And imagine how i’ll make the world a better place
All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I’m feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I’ve gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I’m gonna be a Superhero
Na-na-na-na…
If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I’d kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting’s just not cool
I’d give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
Sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark but don’t bite
All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognize
That I’m feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I’ve gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I’m gonna be a Superhero
Na-na-na-na…
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself
I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
P/s: If I were a little girl…
Song: Go On Girl
Artist: Neyo
I can’t get it back, but
I don’t want it back, I
Realized that,
She don’t know how to act
Never been a dumb dude
No I’m not dense
I Just had a slight lack
Of common sense
I was the good guy
She was the bad girl
I’m thinking one girl
She thinking me, earl James and jimmy
Yep she had plenty
But love for me, she didn’t have any
I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man’s car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I’m strong
Wont take long for me to move on
[Hook:]
Please don’t worry bout me I’m fine
(Please don’t worry bout me I’m fine)
Only gonna play the fool one time
(Only gonna play the fool one time)
Trust me when I say
That I’ll be OK
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
(Go on girl)
Go on girl
[V2:]
I can’t get it back, but
I don’t want it back, I
Realized that,
She don’t know how to act
Tried to settle down and look what I get
Thought it was my time, but I guess not yet
She at the bar getting drinks from many men
I’m in the house, thinking shes with her girlfriends
Trust not knowing, truly not knowing
I look back now like, man, I was open
I was inviting, her into my heart
But she was out riding in some other man’s car
She was my night time, thought I was her star
Guess I was wrong, but see I’m strong
Wont take long for me to move on
[Hook]
[Bridge]
The mistake I made is clear
(we never should’ve been together)
Thats the reason you’re not here
(I know that I can do much better)
Not a single salty tear
Not a feeling in my chest
Baby I’m feeling no stress
I’m too fly to be depressed
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
Go on Girl
This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can’t get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell
This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ everyday
This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
2 o’clock in the morning, something’s on my mind
Can’t get no rest; keep walkin’ around
If I pretend that nothin’ ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on
This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ everyday
This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love [repeat]
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wasted
And I’m wastin’ everyday
This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
To live the rest of our life,
But not together.
P/s: This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told. No hope, or love, or glory. Happy ending gone forever…
Okay. This song dammed superb-ly nice. Just fall in love with this song. Melancholy tune and dammed catchy. And Mika sing dammed well. Good harmonisation! And plus bonus! My blog is playing this song right now. Enjoy it.
"You can call it ’suay’ or you can call it ‘lucky’. To me, neither was it lucky or suay. "
Okay. Just this monday I had my 3rd patient collasped. Kuku. Bloody ass. Shitty. Sickening. Whatever you called it. -_-
Initially, I was dammed happy la. Cause, I didn’t take any case. My preceptor was the NIC. I was left to follow the other staff nurse but my team was like divided into half. And both was trainee staff nurse. So I didn’t take any case. I was doing AN job for the day again! (but the trainnee staff nurse secretly let me take case la.)The day before I was also doing AN job! Haa. I was dammed happy la. Relieved of stress. No people nag. No need pass report. Haha. But, how would I know…
That afternoon, don’t know who eat pau or didn’t bath with flower petals water to get rid of all the suay-ness. Well, probably is me la. But, I can confirmed plus a chop gurantee that I didn’t eat pau hor. And I don’t really fancy pau.
Okay. The story goes like these on monday. After report taking from my team, I wanna get things done as soon as possible. Thus, I went to prepare the turning trolley. Then I turn from last cubicle first with HCA. Then slowly one by one. My side wasn’t heavy at all. Those patient are those that would be able to press the call-bell if they want me to change. After doing turning for my team patients, my HCA and me saw the other team still taking report so we wanna went there to help them. So we push the trolley there….
Then my HCA entered the cubicle first. Follow by me. I took my time to don my gloves and apron as it was a MRSA cubicle. However, at the doorway, I already sensed something amissed. I saw the malay uncle bubbling from the mouth. I ignored the fact that I gotta wear apron. Thus, I just put on my gloves while I walk straightaway to the patient bedside. My HCA was looking at the uncle and said "aiyoz, why like that?". She is referrring to the bubbling and secretion coming out of the patient mouth. Then I was like also "aiyo!" The more I see, the more I sensed something wrong. Then I start to observe the uncle chest and breathing movement. Then sia la. No Movement. Then I started shaking & calling the uncle name. Kao! No responsed! Then I really dammed sian liao. The next thing I test for pulse. No pulse! Then just nice the dinamap beside the patient. Then I faster put on the BP cuff and I told my HCA we better faster informed the team that were like taking report outside the cubicle. By then in my heart, I already got this feeling I gotta do CPR liao. So I faster suay the kardax table away, to wind down the patient head. I was so bloody panicked that kardax table almost kanna my pregnant HCA. =X
Then, the gwen-look-alike staff nurse came in. Asked me: "active?" Then I said: "I don’t know and I never take the case!" Cause I thought she referring to DIL active or not. And when I thought over about it. I got her meaning. I think she is referring to is this a active resuscitation. If patient collasped not on DIL ward managment or DNR, we actually go all the way and resused them. Then she said "active case la". She faster put down cord side and do chest compression. Then I abit stunted also. I faster assisted her.
I remembered I pulled the alpha-x cell mattress’s CPR thingy. Unlocked the bed. And pushed the bed slightly out. Draw curtain. Pulled out headboard. By the time, the E trolley came liao. I faster on the lights. Break open the e-trolley. Plucked out the bloody board. The attached the leads. I just remember is traffic light sequence (red, yellow, green) Then I passed the whole ambu bag to my ward bro. He start bagging.
By the time, the gwen-look-alike staff nurse got almost tired. Then I told her I take over her. Then I climbed up the bed to do CPR again. Inside my heart was like, kao why got so suay one. Basket. Idiot. Third time liao leh. Kn*.Sincerely, I thought won’t happened liao after my 2nd night experienced. Then nvm, I remembered shortly after that the NYP china male guy also come in help. I think he abit stunt also. He stand there dunnnoe not knowing in what ways he can help. Then I told him I bagged the patient, he helped me do CPR. Then we go one round. While bagging alot of resistant sia. Then, my SNs all don’t know is it forget that the sunctioning apparatus all inside the e-trolley then don’t know go where take. Take untill dammed bloody long. Then got one part they asked me scissor. Then I was like trying help them find. But, actually e-trolley got scissors. Haha. Is like that dammed funny. Then got one part got another staff nurse told me: "I do the chest compression 5 cycles then you bag k?" I was like thinking I thought must keep bagging. So i ignored her and bag. Then she say: "I told you to bag then you bag right, why you bag?" Then the gwen-look-alike staff nurse said, never mind you just go on bagging. Haha. The MO olso say why you stop, just continue to bag. My MO olso dammed cute. He see me dammed tired wanna take over me. He said "you cannot lah, never mind I do". But, the thing is that he do awhile also tired liao. Then he asked: "why only got 2 students(me and the nyp guy)?" He said he tired also. Diao. Anyway, Heng, I wear pants suit that day. Wahahahhaa.
After pushing 5-6 ampoules of adrenaline he went asystole, and even on dopamine drip. I also remembered got one part they ask me put on the drip cannot find the patient IV plug sia. No pulse. Thus, they decided shocked the patient. The weird thing is that I thought doctor should shock not nursing staff. End up my brother shock the patient. Cause he is nearest to the defillbrillator. End up after the ninth adrealine went in through the femoral cath. We gave up. Uncle has no pulse no ECG rythm.
After everything end. My hand dammed aching sia. Then stupidest thing is like I ownself repack the e-trolley sia. Cause, I think that they think I’m the only one considered most free to pack e-trolley cause other student taking cases and all the staff nurse dammed busy to catch up with their work after code blue. My preceptor being NIC also no time no pack. She asked me to pack then she later check through. Dammed stupid sia. I like ownself standing there do defilbrillator test and function test for ambu bag. Everybody keep looking at me lor. Diao lor.
The gwen-look-alike staff nurse keep laughing at me for at my 3rd experience and having to do function test and everything by ownself. Lol. Is like they also say I suay sia. Ask me if I got shared my experience from my friends. She say she student time also not so exciting like mine. She say at least I participate actively in it. Not everybody have the chance. Then I was like..-_-..Don’t know what to say. Purely no comments lor.
Although is nice experiencing la. But still unbelievable. Somemore is 3rd time liao. Also, I’m that kind so timid one and nervous during skills test. Oh my god…Arghz! And PLUS tommorrow is my second round of night. I dammed scared now lor. Good luck to me man. =(
