Facades Exists Between You And Me

Fancy me. New year’s eve spenting at home. Alone k? Talking about friends? Forget about it. They are typical. That’s all I can say. I understand but..Don’t know what else to say. There is just this noticeably trend in them. I don’t quite like it. I wished they could change for the better in 2006. Well, staying at home is not too bad what. Subtle decision. Haha. They say alot of bad things happened at the end of the last day of the year. I believe. I am not kuku. Haha. Just heed others advices.

Well, I had my day sleeping at home yesterday. Haha. Super-duper tired. Had spent my night earlier on without any wink of sleep. Missed out dinning with the gers for Fish & Co. Haha. Overslept lah~!

[Yiping and me! Taken at esplanade. On thurs! No shuxian pic =( wait for her to upload.]

I must say that I did not drown myself in alcohol. It is just me. Friends who know me. They all know that I drink. So don’t worry kor. =) Whahaa..

Nah, I woke up at seven plus. Afterwhich at nine, I went down to have a bowl of wonderful pork porridge at Chinatown last night. Haha *Yummy*

Looked! That’s where I had my supper!

2005 is coming to an end in another few more hours. 2005 marks the end. The end of everything that happened in 2005. Nothing much or major changes in myself. Except, I have a deeper sense in term of the guys out there. Guys are just cute mammals. Haha.

My wished for 2006? Haha. Alot. Peace for the world? Sounds like Miss world? Lolz. I don’t know what I should wish for. A bf? Nono..Let nature take its course. Money? Maybe uh..Well, I just receive my bursary thingy. *Hao lian* Should be alright for the time-being. Clothes? Bought some le. So tell me. What I need? Haha..

-I don’t drown myself in alcohol. But I did drown my problems into the can of beer I am drinking.-

Haha. Can you imagine I am actually at Shuxian’s house right now? This moment at 6.25am? Definately unbelievable right?..These little girls( Include Yiping lah) are actually sleeping now. Had earlier on agreed that we don’t sleep but end up they all fallen asleep and left me onli. =(..lolz..We had fun last night. We drank. We played. Girl’s talk and everything. We do all sort of things. Super-duper lame. So what am I gonna to do now? when they are all away in their dreamland?…

Well, let’s talk about what I have done for my this sparingly holiday.I had lotsa of fun this week and last week I guessed it’s my most fufilling holidays =P.. With celebrations and shopping trips and etc. Afterwhich, I am gonna to suffer 3 weeks of stupid attachment. Arghz~ Life sucks. I am not happy at all but trying to make myself as busy as possible so that I wouldn’t think so much..lolz

-Girls are always at  the losing end. So do I.I have got no what I am doing. But I just couldn’t stop. This is the saddest part of life when everythings you do has got no meaning at all.-

如果你不再出现 我的世界 还有什麼可贵
可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什麼叫永远

想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最後属於谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 (的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭
Oh~ Ho-oh Wu~

如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言 一点点摧毁 Ho-oh~

想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最後属於谁

我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 (的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 (全都熄灭)
我的天空今天有点灰 (有一点灰)
我的心是个落叶的季节 Yeah-yi-Yeah
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 (全都熄灭)
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 Ho-oh
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭~

-It’s not easy a guy to come into my heart. If they happened to come into my life, I will locked them up in reddish corner and loved them whole-heartedly.-

Lolz~ Festive seasons packed the weekends. I had my christmas’s eve spent with my friends at cosy bay. Nothing special. Just normal gift exchange. Loads of photo taking there. Lolz. I admit I was abit tipsy that night. Because I didn’t had any food in my stomach earlier on. You know what I will do If I get tipsy right? Start spuring out anything. Dui Bu Qi~! =P..Well, for christmas and today I spent at home lor. Life is like that. No colours~ No nothing for me. =) Nahz, managed to know a new friend in friendster. Happy chatting with him. =)..Gotta end here..Byebye~

-My life has got no colours. I don’t know since when I learnt to confide in that small-small world of mine. Just like a ruined place that has just been attacked by a disaster. I see humans left there one by one. Eventually, no one there. Last but not least, darkness overwhelmed it.-

Phew~ It’s been a exciting week for me. Super-duper busy. I am far too lazy to type. Why not I just list them down? =D. Anyway, well life had to be like this. As hectic as possible, so we will never regret living in this world. Haha!

Last week

16/12/05 (Fri)

1. Captain’s ball game [of course, we won. =P]
2. Went down to BBDC to settle some driving stuff.

17/12/05 (Sat)

1. Back to school for stewpid human domino to break world record -_-"
2. Went out with my family for dinner as well as shopping. We had fish & co. Yummy~! =P

18/12/05 (Sun)

1. Went to clementi for breakfast with family again.
2. Went to Giant at IMM to shop for some necessities.

This week

19/12/05 (Mon)

1. Went back to school went Meimei for a game of basketball.
2. Afterwhich, went to clementi swimming complex to swim.
3. Watch King Kong on the same day as well. Touching show. [Breast do have true love too k? =P]

20/12/05 (Tue)

1. Once again, to clementi party KTV world for singing session.
2. Went jogging at clementi stadium at evening.

21/12/05 (Wed)

1. Went to meet Yiping at PS for shop for some project stuff but to no avail cause we bought nothing.
2. Headed down to Marina Bay for steamboat session.
3. Saw weixiong and classmates.
4. What the heck? It suddenly rains -_-"
5. We managed to get into the shelter and continue our dinner. =D

-I thought being 18, I could have done alot of things. However, it doesn’t have anything significants at all. Being 18, I only understands one thing. Is that I am just one more step away from my dream guy. This saddened me the most.-

练舞室的玻璃墙
反射你踮脚起舞的模样
音乐起灯光渐亮
你轻盈的像焰火般闪亮

奔跑跳跃和舒展
为了你我不怕遍体鳞伤
托着你让爱飞翔
你早已是我舞台的中央

做你的舞伴 Wu Wu~
配合你跳出优美的旋转
微笑给你降落的安全感
哪怕是半秒的拥抱都渴望

做你的舞伴 Wu Wu~
就算只有几分钟的短暂
掌声停息观众陆续离场
我却一直陪在你身旁

练舞室的玻璃墙
反射你踮脚起舞的模样
音乐起灯光渐亮
你轻盈的像焰火般闪亮

奔跑跳跃和舒展
为了你我不怕遍体鳞伤
托着你让爱飞翔
你早已是我舞台的中央

做你的舞伴 Wu Wu~
配合你跳出优美的旋转
微笑给你降落的安全感
哪怕是半秒的拥抱都渴望

做你的舞伴 Wu Wu~
就算只有几分钟的短暂
掌声停息观众陆续离场
我却一直陪在你身旁

做你的舞伴
配合你跳出优美的旋转
微笑给你降落的安全感
哪怕是半秒的拥抱都渴望

做你的舞伴 Wu Wu~
就算只有几分钟的短暂
掌声停息观众陆续离场
我却一直陪在你身旁

掌声停息灯光渐渐暗淡
我会一直陪在你身旁~

It’s just another nice song out there. =)

-I don’t know what I am doing. It could be a moment of foolishness but even it is so why is it just so hard to make myself talk to you. And when I thought I could do that to other guys too as well..-

Here’s another nice song by 容祖儿. Cheers~! Hope you guys will like it. =) Although, no ones is reading my blog. Hehe.

容祖儿 - 等不及爱上你

曲：刘志文 | 词：葛大为
竟然刚好我们同时点了 同一首流行歌曲
你想唱给我听 我想唱给你听
如果爱情电影最后的结局 不如我们预期
你有没有勇气 不顾一切来深情
调整电话铃声旋律
练习响应你的语气 一秒不考虑
我等不及 解释自己依恋的心情
是因为你 参与了我每一值表情
真的爱你
也等不及 探听你对幸福的决心
怕来不及 错过相爱最好的时机
多么可惜
为什么当你昨天又迟到了 我也说不要紧
宁愿责怪天气 也没失去耐心
感谢街上人潮拥挤
压缩我们之间距离 一秒间靠近
准备好面临爱的酸甜情绪
在我面前的是你 我真的愿意

Click here to listen: http://www.souting.com/playsong.asp?48265

-It get’s tough, when you don’t even know who I am-

This few bloody life-struggling days is teribbly long. Everyday, I had these and that to attend to and it totally drive me to nuts. My blog happened to crop up with some stupid thing and my page goes blank. By the way, I managed to talk to my handsome! Haha. Only find that he is handsome only. But he is always busy and away. Anyway, he won’t sees into me de. He is just a substitute for my Jay chou. Oh yeah! Common test is coming! Stress level goes unknowing up again. Arghz! Bless me =)

-Selfish is human nature because life’s a struggle.-

Well, apparently there is something wrong with my blog. My page couldn’t be viewed as in when you enter everything’s go blank. Thus, this entry is purely update to see if my blog still works. If it doesn’t then blame it on my luck. =P

By the way, we got in into the mural design thing. Yeah! Haha! incredible right? Have to do a sketch up for it. Dammed it. =P

宋岳庭 the composer and singer of this song (Life’s a struggle) past away on 2002 being diagnosed with  bone cancer when he was only at the young age of 23.  Since young, he was well-known for having natural talents or elements of an artist or musician. He was being jailed in USA when he was 19. He spent his time in the prison and serve his term by composing music. The moments spent there change his perspective and views towards life. This album was even nominated in Taiwai’s golden melody award. He devoted his lifetime to produce his music…

我睁开双眼踏入这个世界
妈妈给我生命现在让我自生自灭
这让我恐惧在我的眼里每个人都戴着面具
回想过去难道生命就是这样延续?
我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了
就像整个社会被人心笼罩着它也是黑的
我背着宿命的十字架
也渴望power, paper and respect
我想这大概就是human nature
佛家说烦恼即是菩提我暂且不提
我倒是希望能够回到母体
老妈对不起我时常把你气得跺脚
你说你后悔当初没有把我堕掉
每当我放学回家放下那沉重的背包
家里空无一人只残留着你香水的味道
那时我知道你那天晚上又要加班
我打开冰箱拿出微波炉吃冰的晚餐
老爸在凌晨两点钟醉醺醺地回家
我从睡梦中醒来只听到你们在吵架
我没有办法专心面对第二天的考试
老师他不喜欢我我也不喜欢老师
我讨厌穿制服我讨厌学校的制度
我讨厌训导主任的嘴脸讨厌被束缚
that’s true
很多人不屑我的态度他们说我太cool
警察不爽我都曾将我逮捕
i don’t give a fuck about 人家说什么
他们想说什么就说什么但是他们算什么
没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我
主宰是我自己随便人家如何想我还是我
爱钱的女人只给凯子摸
不懂得用保险套的人别嫌孩子多
金钱力量虽大却生不带来死不带走
紧握着双拳的人们何时能松开手?

**life’s a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**life’s a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

法庭严肃的空气逼得我快不能呼吸
当时面临着终生监禁的我开始反省
铁栏杆之后又是个截然不同的景象
刑犯们眼神中看不到一点和平的气象
仅有一寸短的铅笔写的是监狱风云
日记上描绘的不是美好的户外风景
自由在他们眼里才是憧憬
放一把自制武器在枕头旁以防随时有人偷袭
有些人怀疑老婆在外偷情
有些人把家人寄来的信件一张一张好好收集
有些人二十四小时几乎在床上休息
有些人精神失常因为受不了打击
三个月如火如荼的漫长等待已过去
出狱后的我得面对三年的缓刑期
这也好一生中第一次感觉到幸福
但生命中的考验何止如此我不清楚
我不知道接下来还有什么会发生
翻开报纸的新闻又是看到放火杀人
还记得某年无意间发现的照片
上面有阿姨对男人施行口交的恶心画面
这简直摧毁了她在我心目中的形象
我无法忘怀照片中那笑容多么淫荡
我抵抗胸口存在着不安及惶恐
我不断听到痛苦的声音在内心怒吼

**life’s a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**life’s a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles
everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

不论我走到天南不论我走到地北
不论我走到哪都见识到人心的虚伪
it’s kinda funny 在人的眼里只有money
外表好像要帮你却只是想帮他自己
笑容可掬的脸后面谁知道是个狼心狗肺
连朋友都能背叛因为只有名利合他口味
她说她爱你的时候讲的是问心无愧
搞不好她爱的是你身后的荣华富贵
你可曾困惑在你身旁谁是敌是友
对你落井下石的可能就是你的挚友
你可曾经历当你最需要帮助的时候
平常跟你称兄道弟的人都突然失踪
亲爱的神伟大的神
你可以怪我想法太过无知但我只是人
我不信人因为人也不信我
不要问我为什么我最多只能告诉你这就是我
生命像海浪一样有时高有时低
你是否告诉自己坚强渡过各种时期

He had so much unhappiness in this society, his family, his values is all upside down. He never been happy before. Life has been a struggle for him and he wrote this song..

This song really strikes my heart. I can say that it is alot or even hundred times better than others songs I ever heared is not like any elements of popular music I heared. It is the reflects of real sense of human nature. When the world so cold. The denial of human’s feelings. The reality we are facing in this never- ending world. I had the same intuition with the composer. When nothing matters at all. I hate the society we are facing. It practically sucks. Humans have no sense of love and warmth. Life is so unhappy. But only I could do now, is to move on..