Facades Exists Between You And Me

Listening to JJ Lin Jun Jie song now. Dammed nice worx. 只对你说( Sarong Hae Yo) in the lastest album. Nahz~ Just had my CMBIO exam module today. Not too easy and not too tough. Was alright~ Just hope to pass can liao.  Just hope to get over with exam quickly~! =(..I AM SO TIRED.

I think someone is having trouble. How am I going to put words across my mouth to ask this person ? Forget about it~ =) Btw~ I’m gonna to book chalet for my birthday. Yeah~! Where should I book? Costal sands(Sentosa), Costal sands(Pasir ris), Costal sands(Downtown east) ? Which is good? Any idea?

P/s: I wanna ask you what happened but I just couldn’t? Are you alright? Really in deep shit? I don’t dare to talk to you. I am afraid I might disturb you. Are you okay?..Can I talk to you?..

Haix. It is only the end of my first paper. Not too sure can pass or not. SAQ kind of half gone. Kinda worry about it. Arghz~! Just felt dammed bloody frustrated. Everything’s doesn’t go well for me.

It is weird. Just weird. When I am in front of him. I am not me. As in, I am worry about my own results too and well, I can’t believe that I can actually tell him not to worry for his result too. What the hell~!.. I had to pretend that everything’s dammed smoothly well for me. Why do I have to show him the best of me everytime when the worst has already strike me and what’s more? He never will know about it? Why is it like that? I don’t know.

Inside my heart was like dammed bloody worried. Don’t know whether can pass or not. Nono. I want to be myself. Can I? I will never fall in love with someone who doesn’t even feels for me. I rather choose to be loved not to love someone. It will be terribly if I really sank down into it. Tell me~! I have right to choose.

I LOVE THIS TWO DELICATED WORDS–>LIFE SUCKS. =)

P/s: I don’t wanna fall for you, it will be painful without you even trying to catch.

I’m pretty slack this few days. Exams round the corner but my hearts not with me. Lolz. With who then? With holidays lah. Don’t anyhow think kaez. Haha. My luck hasn’t turn any better. Unable to sleep at night. Don’t know why. Sucks man. My heart condition too. Hope it turn worst! Whaha~..So that I could die at younger age.

This few days I thought alot. Something just strike my mind recently. Just felt that life is so short, I should live it to the fullest. Everyone has got their own life. Humans are selfish. Friends. Family. Me. Everyone. Why should I care so much? Just heck care. Life it right. Suddenly, I just felt that I would die at a young age. Don’t know why. Probably, heart disease or stomach cancer. Malignant tumor in brain.

I felt that I have nothing to regret right now. My friends are happy. My family is healthy and alright. Even if I die now, my sister and brother will take care of my mum. What else could I have missed?..Not that I am not happy. I am normal. I am happy. But, I don’t see the point of continue to live. There is nothing which I think is important to make me live on to life. If I die. They will only be sad for moment and live on with their life. It doesn’t affect them right? So it’s okay I think..Who will still remember me? Lol.

P/s:我们可不可以不勇敢? 当伤太重心太酸无力承担...

Today is Feb 14th which is valentine’s day. The very day seems to pass very long. Don’t know why. Perhaps without a valentine. See every couples with flowers and presents. Felt happy for them. Love is on the air~. Met the girls and had dinner with them at cafe cartel. Afterwhich, saw Qiuzi and her bf. So sweet~ Lolz! She look so happy and I felt twice the happiness for her.

What about me?..Haha,Well~ a normal day for me. There is no valentine’s day for me because I hadn’t met my Mr. Right. Lolz. Let say if I had met my Mr. Right, I guess everyday would be valentine’s day for me..

On this very special day, I would like to dedicate this song to someone:

Landy & Jason -能不能 ( Er Zuo Ju Zhi Wen Ost)

Jason:
第一次当我见到你　你说你紧张的忘了呼吸
记忆里　我只想玩玩而已　在一起　没想过这问题
你说你从来没有忘记　我们第一个夜里　我一边说我爱你
一边喘着气　SORRY　我爱你　是指你的身体
我不知道　你的需要　你对我的要求我从来没做到　啊～　你怎么受的了　啊～～
但我总是见到你微笑　痛苦总是往肚子里吞掉　只希望有一天我能明了　你的好
我假装对你不在意　假装失去我的记忆
为了隐藏以前痛苦回忆　我选择放弃　放心去爱人的权利
因为我不相信自己　不相信你　不相信一句话叫做真心真意　我选择绝情绝意
你把我当作情人　我却把你当作敌人　我的人生　就是充满猜疑猜忌
不要浪费精神在我身上寻找永恒　执迷不悔只会再你我身上造成一道道永远的伤痕BADY

Landy:
能不能就对着我说爱我　能不能就陪着我天长地久　不要对我若即若离让我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我　能不能就陪着我一直到最后　从今以后剩下的路要你陪我走

Jason:
你一定觉得我坏　谁都不爱　随你去猜　我是在　什么心态
面对你给我的爱　你对我好　我就对你越坏
但我心里一直有声音跟我告白　它说不能没有你的存在
好怪　想爱　却又说不出来　为何心软　为何心软　为何你从不会对我心烦
已经有了答案　我却不敢去看　面对你不再反感　我发现我冰冷的心感受到你的温暖
该怎么办　我现在爱你会不会太晚　你是我唯一　我想跟你在一起　不想和你分离
OH～就算外面的女孩子她们叫我BABY-BY　在我心底只有一个老婆叫做VICKY-CKY
不知道该怎么说　但我知道怎么做　我不会一错再错
忘了以前痛苦的过程　我们要的只是结果
你问我会一起多久　我不知道　大概一辈子够不够　牵着你的手往前走　我只听到你说

Landy:
能不能就对着我说爱我　能不能就陪着我天长地久　不要对我若即若离让我伤心泪流
能不能就对着我说爱我　能不能就陪着我一直到最后　从今以后剩下的路要你陪我走

Landy:能不能就对着我说爱我　能不能就陪着我天长地久
Jason:能不能　能不能　能不能够　对着我说爱我
Landy:相信我　能不能就对着我说爱我　能不能就陪着我一直到最后
Jason:就一直到最后

-不要对我若即若离让我伤心泪流-

P/s: I sat by the roads of orchard today, hoping that you might appeared. But, not even a single soul. I was disappointed but I didn’t give up. Even if you hadn’t been able to appear today, I wait for you at the same place tomorrow. If not tomorrow, the day after tomorrow. and even if it is not the day after tomorrow, I wait for you forever in my heart..I know you will been moved by me one day. I must be strong. To wait for the day you accept me with your arms open..

Why my luck has been so down lately? I questioned god. Haix. This morning, during adventure rope, I felt breatheless. I was doing the high elements. Suddenly, I felt that I was going to black-out. My heart is like pulling. I felt pain in my heart. Perhaps, I had stay on top for quite a long while or the belt is too tight? Or even maybe some other hidden reasons that I don’t know. This is the first time I felt like these. Seriously saying, it had been quite a while, it happen sometimes only. Should I go for check? I don’t know. So what if I check?..Haix. Useless man. Simple task and yet I can’t even complete.

Today Nsl practical assessment was alright. The only lucky thing which happened today is that she said my skills is okay. Nothing much though. Everything was smooth.

I went to toilet and change my uniform today, something so stupid happened. I wear my shirt upside down. Can anything else be stupid than this? So suay~ Embarassing.

Reached home safety today. Then I found myself having diarrhoea. Keep going to the Loo. I didn’t eat anything today. How could I have diarrhoea? Suay. Maybe it’s gastric.

Lastly, life can never be suay than this. I almost fell when I was sleeping. That’s all I can say. Haix.

P/s: 能不能就对着我说爱我,能不能就陪着我天长地久,不要对我若即若离让我伤心泪流…

默默在你的身後守候的我
多想看你不经意的笑容
或许我的心你不懂
我会努力让你感动

在你眼中有多麼笨拙的我
决不放弃追逐你的执著
只要你能再多些回应我
一个笑或点头全接受

能不能再靠近一点点
大声说出你所有感觉
别再紧紧关在只有自己的世界
温暖太阳为你迎接

能不能再靠近一点点
能不能再勇敢一点点
就算让我知道我永远只是单恋
我也会藏著感谢
笑著和你说再见

P/S:我知道我永远只是单恋…

Super busy this few weeks. First, was eye check-up. Second, was Chinese new year. Third, was project. Many and many. I am doom for the coming holiday. I have GL camp, Kun ming trip and lastly my driving. I didn’t know my life can be so pack. Honestly, I hope my bad luck will go away. Hope for the best of me after this Chinese new year. Erm, yeah. My eye had recovered le. Finally, had a peace of mind. =)

Oh yeah~! Right now, I am after this show 恶作剧之吻[It started with a kiss] Super nice~! I just feel Lin Yi Chen whose name at the drama called "袁湘琴" acted well. A innocent girl who secretly admirer a guy whom she liked for two years. They are from the same 高中 (secondary school) Whahaha. She likes "直樹" starring Zheng Yuan Chang. He is a 天才, with a IQ scored of 200. He is proud and can be quite ignorance at the same time. Unfortunately, they are from both very extreme world. Lin Yi Chen is from th "F" class and Zheng Yuan Chang is from "A" class. Lolz. Initially, 直樹 doesn’t likes 袁湘琴. He think he is stupid. He does alot of things to make her sad and unhappy. However, having enough courage to love him till the end, 袁湘琴 never gives up. Lolz. Things start to goes wrong at the day, she confessed to him.Hahaz.

She is so brave towards the guy she likes. Lin Yi Chen & Yuan Chang dammed sweet in the show loh. It’s adapted from Japanese Drama. Is the same. The original sound track of the show also dammed nice. Well, everything about that show is just nice loh. Some parts will actually cried loh. As in, you will feel what the female lead feels too. Somemore, is dammed lame and funny. Can’t stand. When it’s sentimental is touching. When is funny, I don’t think you can stop laughing. Lolz