Facades Exists Between You And Me

恶作剧之吻 电视原声带 Ost - 全世界的人都知道
在见到你 关键的每一秒 爱的情愫 开始发酵
小心翼翼 写给你的字条 幸福画上心型记号
你像一座孤傲的岛 有自己的城堡
我是上不了岸的潮 也只能将你围绕
全世界的人都知道 一厢情愿是种烦恼
只要换你一次微笑 就算是作梦也会笑
全世界的人不知道 我不在乎付出多少
我想这就是幸福写照 任何人不能阻止我对你的好

P/S: 全世界的人不知道 我不在乎付出多少…因为你

BIOODY TIME TABLE FUCKING ASS. FORGIVE ME FOR SCOLDING BADDIE WORDS. WHA KAOZ. GOT INTO GROUP 06. YIPING, SHU XIAN AND ME GOT INTO DIFFERERNT CLASS ROOM. 6,7 and 8. WHAT THE HELL TRYING TO SEPARATE US. SOME OTHERS IS ABLE TO STAY IN SAME GROUP. WHAT THE HELL. OBVIOUSLY, THEY ARE TRYING TO SEPARATE LOHZ. EVERYTIME SO SUAY ONE. STUPID NEW TIME-TABLE EVERYDAY END SO LATE. GOT NO MOOD ALREADY LOH. FUCK UP SCHOOL OF HEALTH SCIENCE. THIS IS SIMPLY UNFAIR. EVEN MY TUTORIAL GROUP ALSO NOT THE SAME AS THEM. CB. MAKE ME SERIOUSLY BLOWED UP. I SUPER BUAY SONG NOW LOR. GOT INTO GROUP 06. ALSO DON’T KNOW WHO IS MY NEW CLASSMATE. LAST 2ND DAY OF ATTACHMENT ALSO CANNOT LET ME HAVE SOME PEACE. DON’T UNDERSTAND. WHY MY LIFE IS ALSO SO SUAY AND NOT SMOOTH-SAILING DE. WHAT IS GOD TRYING TO DO. WHAT DID I DO? EVERYTIME THE SUAY SUAY THING COME TO ME. NOTHING GOOD COME OUT OF ME. BORN TO BE JINX LAHZ. KNN. PREVIOUS LIFE DUNNOE WHAT SINS I HAVE CREATED. I GOT NO MOOD TO GO FOR WHATEVER FUCKING CAMP. MY WHOLE HOLIDAY DONATE TO THE FUCKING SCHOOL. COMING MONDAY STILL MAKE ME GO CAMP. THINK WE WHAT? ROBORT. GO SHIT LAH. STUFF SOME SUPER DUPER SMELLY STINKING SHIT INTO YOUR MOUTH. SOME MORE, MAKE ME GO BACK FOR SCHOOL FOR STUPID DISCUSSION. GO KUN MING STILL MUST DO SO MANY THINGS. AND WORST. EVERYDAY WAKE UP 5AM  PLUS TO ATTACHMENT. MY WORST CHOICE IN LIFE IS TO JOIN NURSING. MAKING MY LIFE UPSIDE DOWN. I DON’T FEEL HAPPY AT ALL. ALSO, STUPID WARDSMATES AND PEOPLE IN MY WARD. ALL QURALLED, GOSSIP, BACKSTAB AND BITCH AROUND. SEE THEM ALSO SIAN LOR. SO CHILDISH. ALL GO HOSPITAL WORK STILL PLAY AND PLAY. FUCKING INSENSIBLE. LIFE IS TERRIBLY SUCKS. I DON’T FEEL LIKE LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL ANYMORE. MIGHT AS WELL, QUIT THE BLOODY FUCKING COURSE. SUCKED UP COURSE. ANYHOW MAKE CHANGES. I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO ANGRY BEFORE. PISSED MY ASS OUT. SUCK SUCK SUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK. SEE TEACHER FACE ALSO SIAN. EVERYTIME CATCH ME SAY ME. WHATEVER LAH, HOPEFULLY YOU ALL SAY UNTILL YOUR MOUTH ROTTEN. THEN KICK ME OUT OF THE COURSE LOHZ. OR JUST LET ME DIE LAH. SO EASY. WANNA MAKE MY LIFE DIFFICULT RIGHT. GO AHEAD. MY LIFE IS JUST LIKE THAT. PLAY WITH IT COME ON. YOU WANT YOU CAN TAKE IT. DON’T GIVE A FUCK MAN. KB LAHZ.FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

I HATE THIS WORLD. THIS SOCIETY. THE PEOPLE. THEY MAKE MY LIFE UNBEARABLE. I FELT MISERABLE EVERYDAY. MY HEART, MY SOUL AND MIND IS SO MUCH OF UNHAPPINESS. I SEE THE UGLY SIDE OF THE WORLD. EVEN LITTLE THINGS LIKE TAKING A BUS, I SEE THE UGLY SIDE OF THE SOCIETY AND HUMAN NATURE. PEOPLE ARE SELFISH, THEY THINK FOR THEMSELVES. I COME TO THIS WORLD TO SEE HOW HUMANS CAN BE SELFISH AND HOW THEY TORTURED MY LIFE. MY HEART IS FULL FOR HATRED AND UNHAPPINESS TOWARDS THE SOCIETY. ONE DAY EVEN IF I DIE, IS PROBABLY PEOPLE AROUND ME FORCED ME. THEY WILL REGRET. THEY WILL. MY HEART HAS LONG TIME DIED. I WOKE UP EACH MORNING FOR THE SAKE OF WAKING UP. I EAT BECAUSE I HAVE TO LIVE. THERE IS NO MEANING TO MY LIFE. YOU PEOPLE DON’T UNDERSTAND THIS FEELING AT ALL. BE IN MY LIFE, YOU WILL UNDERSTAND ME. I AM UNABLE TO WALK UP OF MY LIFE. LIFE IS NOTHING. REALLY. WE ARE NOTHING. NOTHING AT ALL. COME TO THINK ABOUT IT, WE ARE BORN BECAUSE OF OUR PARENT’S SEXUAL PLEASURE. THIS WORLD IS WEIRD. I DON’T UNDERSTAND. SO MANY UNCERTAINTIES. THE NEWPAPER HEADLINES EVERDAY IS EVEN WORST. SO SUCKS. SO MANY PROBLEMS AFTER ONE ANOTHER. BLAME ME FOR NEGATIVE. I DON’T TRUST ANYONE. AND PEOPLE DON’T TRUST ME TOO. LIFE IS TOO UNFAIR. EVERYDAY I AM EXPLORING THE EDGES OF DEATH. I WOULD LIKE TO SEE HOW PEOPLE WANTS TO DIE. ONE DAY, I WANT GRANT THEIR WISHES.

杨丞琳 - 可爱

咖啡已经　温热不再
静静旁发呆
连风也停留窗外　等待
电话也已经　喧闹不再
静静旁
时钟也不知怎么停下来
期待　突然醒来
有你　温暖依赖
爱与不爱在徘徊
摇摆
我想你明白可能不是爱
我想你只想找个替代
你都说自己并没有那么可爱
我想你明白
这并不是爱
我想你忘么是爱
我不过是可爱
却还不够被爱
电话也已经　喧闹不再
静静旁
时钟也不知怎么停下来
期待　突然醒来
(有爱可以依赖)
爱与不爱在徘徊
摇摆
我想你明白可能不是爱
我想你只想找个替代
你都说自己并没有那么可爱
我想你明白
这并不是爱
我想你忘么是爱
我不过是可爱
却还不够被爱
我想你明白可能不是爱
我想你只想找个替代
你都说自己并没有那么可爱
我想你明白
这并不是爱
我想你忘么是爱
我不过是可爱
却还不够被爱

P/s: A song from Yang chen ling’s lastest Album Yu Jian Ai. Ehz, not too bad song. Sounds touching to me. Just wanna reccommend everybody. =) Some parts of the lyrics abit spoil lah. Forgive me. Anyway, this song rocks. =D

Find a guy, who…

Calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Calls you back when you hang up on him.

Will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Turns to his friends and says, "…that’s her."

P/S: I just wanna tell the author who wrote such crap. Sorry. Such guys doesn’t exist in this world anymore. Lolz =)

Spent the whole last night composing a song. First time trying, wondered how was it. I sent the drafted one to Aaron and Meimei, they both said it was not too bad. Haha~ I will upload it as soon as i finished completing the lyrics.

Ehz, went to downtown east to book chalet for my 19th birthday this afternoon. It was free voucher anyway. Just utilized it. Just needed to top up 20 bucks for it. Haha. Looking forward to it~! 27th May~! Hope no exam no test!

Afterwhich, my bro-in-law took us to Changi Village. Somewhere there lah, to enjoy tasty Nasi lemak. Then drop my relative down at Aloha Changi. It was Blk H. Rather near to OCH (Old Changi Hospital) Cool man~! At night can go fishing and tour OCH. I advised Xin Ning to book there as well, it is cool and spacious. Not really errie at all. Aloha Loyang looks dammed freaking boring to me. It took quite a long journey to and fro to Pasir ris. On the way, I saw alot of aeroplanes. One day, it will be aku turn to sit on Singapore very own airlines. Whahaha.~ So far, I only sat on other countries airlines. Moderate service.

Haix. How I wish life can be so nice as today. Shiok Man~ Siting on a car with my beloved. Go fishing, makan, exploring places and look at planes taking off. Whahaaz..I love fun and carefree life……

-_^..That’s me..

P/s: I saw the images flashing back while I was on the car today. This time round, I don’t feel anything. It had really become wonderful meomeries for me to be kept.

Finally, exams are over. Hehe! It marks the end of year 1 for my nursing course. My god~ Time passes dammed fast. Just a moment ago I thought everything was yesterday. Lolz~ Although holidays are coming, it doesn’t seems it belong to me at all. Cause I’m fully booked. Whahaa~ Looked at my shedule You will know.

6th Mar to 25th Mar - Clinical Attachment

27th Mar to 29th Mar - Kun Ming Bonding Camp at Pongol Camp Site

29th Mar to 30th Mar - Class gathering? BBq? Not Confirm. Either one of these days if unable to book chalet.

3rd April to 14th April - Kun Ming Trip To China (Youth Expedition  Programme)

?? April to ?? April - Health Science Trial Camp (Tentative)

19th April to 21st April - Health Science FOC (Freshies Orientation Camp)

Lame isn’t it? By the way, I had my class outing yesteday. We went to watch movie at Ang Mo Kio. Final destination 3. Freak show man~ No storyline. Killing and killings. Disgusting and gross image lead to high motility of peristaltic movement in my stomach. Grossed~!

P/s:我为什么不说心里话?..说我爱你..