Facades Exists Between You And Me

我睁开双眼踏入这个世界

妈妈给我生命现在让我自生自灭

这让我恐惧在我的眼里每个人都戴着面具

回想过去难道生命就是这样延续?

我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了

就像整个社会被人心笼罩着它也是黑的

我背着宿命的十字架

也渴望power, paper and respect

我想这大概就是human nature

佛家说烦恼即是菩提我暂且不提

我倒是希望能够回到母体

老妈对不起我时常把你气得跺脚

你说你后悔当初没有把我堕掉

每当我放学回家放下那沉重的背包

家里空无一人只残留着你香水的味道

那时我知道你那天晚上又要加班

我打开冰箱拿出微波炉吃冰的晚餐

老爸在凌晨两点钟醉醺醺地回家

我从睡梦中醒来只听到你们在吵架

我没有办法专心面对第二天的考试

老师他不喜欢我我也不喜欢老师

我讨厌穿制服我讨厌学校的制度

我讨厌训导主任的嘴脸讨厌被束缚

That’s true

很多人不屑我的态度他们说我太cool

警察不爽我都曾将我逮捕

I don’t give a fuck about 人家说什么

他们想说什么就说什么但是他们算什么

没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我

主宰是我自己随便人家如何想我还是我

爱钱的女人只给凯子摸

不懂得用保险套的人别嫌孩子多

金钱力量虽大却生不带来死不带走

紧握着双拳的人们何时能松开手?

**Life’s a struggle 日子还要过

品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles

Everyday 有多少问题要去面对

有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**Life’s a struggle 日子还要过

品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles

Everyday 有多少问题要去面对

有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

法庭严肃的空气逼得我快不能呼吸

当时面临着终生监禁的我开始反省

铁栏杆之后又是个截然不同的景象

刑犯们眼神中看不到一点和平的气象

仅有一寸短的铅笔写的是监狱风云

日记上描绘的不是美好的户外风景

自由在他们眼里才是憧憬

放一把自制武器在枕头旁以防随时有人偷袭

有些人怀疑老婆在外偷情

有些人把家人寄来的信件一张一张好好收集

有些人二十四小时几乎在床上休息

有些人精神失常因为受不了打击

三个月如火如荼的漫长等待已过去

出狱后的我得面对三年的缓刑期

这也好一生中第一次感觉到幸福

但生命中的考验何止如此我不清楚

我不知道接下来还有什么会发生

翻开报纸的新闻又是看到放火杀人

还记得某年无意间发现的照片

上面有阿姨对男人施行口交的恶心画面

这简直摧毁了她在我心目中的形象

我无法忘怀照片中那笑容多么淫荡

我抵抗胸口存在着不安及惶恐

我不断听到痛苦的声音在内心怒吼

**Life’s a struggle 日子还要过

品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles

everyday 有多少问题要去面对

有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

**Life’s a struggle 日子还要过

品尝喜怒哀乐之后又是数不尽的troubles

Everyday 有多少问题要去面对

有多少夜痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡…

不论我走到天南不论我走到地北

不论我走到哪都见识到人心的虚伪

It’s kinda funny 在人的眼里只有money

外表好像要帮你却只是想帮他自己

笑容可掬的脸后面谁知道是个狼心狗肺

连朋友都能背叛因为只有名利合他口味

她说她爱你的时候讲的是问心无愧

搞不好她爱的是你身后的荣华富贵

你可曾困惑在你身旁谁是敌是友

对你落井下石的可能就是你的挚友

你可曾经历当你最需要帮助的时候

平常跟你称兄道弟的人都突然失踪

亲爱的神伟大的神

你可以怪我想法太过无知但我只是人

我不信人因为人也不信我

不要问我为什么我最多只能告诉你这就是我

生命像海浪一样有时高有时低

P/s: I think I posted this lyrics before. Life was like what the lyrics said. Seriously, life is a struggle. A serious struggle for me. Something is witholding me. Pulling me down to the dark pit. I have doubts. Some many doubts about life. Infinite answers all over me. What about you?

2 Be 3 - Even If

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in different time
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me

Ever since the start of time
You’ve had my love
Even before I knew your name
I knew your heart

In the dark of the darkest night
I could see your face
I always knew from the very start
I would find a way

[CHORUS]

Even if the sun refused to shine
Even if we lived in different time
Even if the ocean left the sea
There would still be you and me
Even if the world would disappear
Even if the clouds would shed no tears
Even if tonight was just a dream
There would still be you and me

You’ve always been and you always will be
The only one
Until forever
The only girl
Until forever
I’ll ever love

In the cold of winter’s chill
I’ll be there to warm your heart
Giving you all of me
For all time
No matter what

[CHORUS]

Two hearts that belong together
Together
From the very start
One love
Now and forever
Now and forever
Nothing can tear up apart

[CHORUS]

[CHORUS]

This song was like when I was in Sec 1, I kept listening. Haha. Nice song there. =) Meaningful lyrics.

P/s: This song bought back many memories. I remembered I once told you that even if the sun refused to shine, even if we lived in differernt times, even if the ocean left the sea. There’ll still be you and me.But, eventually none came true.

I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOUI HATE YOU..I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.I HATE YOU.

I HATE YOU. YOU ARE NOT MY FATHER. I WON’T HAVE A FATHER LIKE YOU. YOU MAKE OUR LIVES MISERABLE. NEVER WILL I CRY EVEN IF YOU DIE.

STOP HAUNTING US. MY LIFE IS SUCKS ENOUGH.

Super stress week for me. Hate Year 2. I  terribly detest going to school everyday. Hai. Life is like shit. Well, I decided for this blog of mine, I am going to make it a "Superficial" blog. lol. Not going to reveal much things. I will write more personal stuffs in my Msn blog. Cause I learnt a lesson. A serious one. It doesn’t pay to be kind man. Haha. But, anyway I am just writing what I feel. Just heck care lah. Doesn’t matter how people treat me, for as long as I don’t treat them in the same way. Never mind about that, I go school for the sake of going school. Doesn’t gonna affect me much either. Life is just sucks and saddening man. Please don’t bother me.

Went to eat fish and chip just now with my friend after ambassors interview thingy. Jega ask alot of question. Just sit there and see. Haha. Do nothing. Now super full, wanna vomit. Haha. Alot of fries. What’s worst? There is still Parmaco and Nursing Science test. Arghz~! Still got Psp booth..=( Can god give me more time?

P/s: Don’t ask me what is my expectation for guys. I’ve no comments because I hadn’t met one.

This few days don’t know why kept on nose bleed. Just imaging walking halfway unknowingly nose bleed. Oh yeah, yesterday catch MI3 with a friend. Not bad lah. With the sound effect, I guess is superb lah. Btw, is a happy-ending. Tom Cruise so sauve. Haha. I can’t sleep now. I guess I slept more than enough. 10 hrs today? I super duper tired for the past few days. Last week is a stress + bad week for me. I got to learnt a phrase which is: "It doesn’t pay well to be kind". That was it really got into my heart. I learnt a lesson. A serious one. =)..I will continue to blog. Doesn’t matter who reads it. =)..

Stick Wit U - Pussycat Dolls

Ohhh.. Oh Oh..

I don’t wanna go another day
So I’m telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That’s why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick with u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick with u
You know how to appreciate it, I must stick with u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick with u

I don’t wanna go another day
So I’m telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain’t nobody gettin’ in between
I want you to know that, you’re the only one for me (one for me)
(What I’m sayin’ is)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick with u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick with u
You know how to appreciate it, I must stick with u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick with u

And now, ain’t nothing else I can need
And now, I’m singing ’cause you’re so, so into me
I got you, we’ll be making love endlessly
I’m with you (baby I’m with you)
Baby you’re with me (baby you’re with me, higher)

So don’t cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain’t bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that’s all that counts
So don’t cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain’t bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that’s, that’s why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick with u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick with u (come on)
You know how to appreciate I, I must stick with u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I muststick with u

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick with u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick with u
You know how to appreciate it, I must stick with u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I’m gonna stick with

P/s: Are you the one I gonna stick to? You gave me a nice impression..=)

I am tired.

Seriously, tired out.

Mentally and physically tired.

Can I close my eyes and never open?

Life is meaningless.

Being born for parent’s sexual pleasure.

I hate my life.

I’ve done what I can.

I leave the rest to god.

P/s: My life was never to be started with…

Today is my suay day. You know how to spell suay? Is S-U-A-Y-..No one can me as bad luck as me. Alot of unhappy thing. Today went for GL meeting. As usual a few people turned up. Yiping quit GL. Shuxian got kick up cause never come for meeting. Somemore she more than 3 times no come. Why should I stay? Right. If you were me. I think you won’t stay ba. Everyone’s leaving and quitting. I see liao very sian. Again, one more time. You know how to spell suay? I AM SUAY. JUST SUAY..

Life is getting even much more sucky than the past. Sian. Very stress. Stress in a sense that I have so much and many more things to be done. Year 2. A new bloody begining for me. Alot more things to learn. Chim Chim terminalogy. Hai. Driving. Advanced Theory. GL thing. Projects. Test. Plans for my birthday.

Life alone in group 6. I think I am no less than Jonathan. Seriously, no actual true friends in my class. Although, they treat me well but I just find that I am like just someone who comes and goes. Like him I am someone who has got no belonging goes around sticking to some group. A pest? I am not refering to him but to me. I don’t feel happy going to school. I go to school because I don’t wanna waste my mum’s money. Everyday, force myself go stupid school. You all won’t know how I feel. Just feel like I have got no identity. Life can never get well for me.

P/s: They saw the surface of me but not my heart. Everyday, I was like running on a long road. But, they are already ahead of me. I can’t do anything.