Facades Exists Between You And Me

P10 Before surgery. Content in photo:(first row from left sitting) Rui Fang, Huizhi, Cheryl Chew Xing Yan, Aili, Beishan, Clare. (Second row from left standing) Jonathan, Unknown, Yati, Ass-Ho shu xian, Riana, Suhailah,Farini,Liyana. (Missing from photo) Yippy.

Before surgery. About the same from the top one. Ownself figure out. =)

2 years after surgery. Content in picture: Very hard to describe. Cause it super mix cause not exactly own class of Ex-P10. Can call it Ex-T05 gathering? We didn’t planned it on purpose. Not for specially for my birthday too. It’s difficult to explain. But, we just happen to meet each other and took these photo. It’s just so coincidence that things happen. I think it all happened for a reasons ya? This picture comes by so hard sia. Lols.

At Seoul Garden.A meal that come by so hard. Joke of the day: Seoul Garden is a garden without plants and flowers!

Current P06. It’s like a bottle cough mixture. Mix here and there. With people from my year 1 practical class and tutorial class and new classmates!

"I happened to pack my stuffs and saw the photos when we took during year 1. Is like… What a big difference!. My God. Did we go for a plastic surgery or what? You see Jonathan. The specs also change liao. But he still the same. Not handsome. Just jokking. Then don’t know who is the UNKNOWN. But, i think she look like MIC. But still pretty to me. Laughs. Shuxian also. Haha. Last time, the hair also quite funny.Suhailah changed style liao. Havoc uh? Liyana also no longer walk contact lens le. Chio liao la. Rui fang hair become longer uh? Lol. Haha. Cheryl still same same. A person with full of principals. Clare’s look olso changed le.I think slimed down le. Beishan also. You compare her and year 1. Wha seh.What happened ard?  Now become more chio le. Happy uh? Lol. We really changed unknowingly de lor. AiLi also changed le. HuiTeng also. Haha. Although you ah-hem *shrink* le, but still big wor. Hahaa."

Okay. I’m really busy to the max for the past few days. Alot of celebrations going on. I eat 3 cakes in a row. But But But.., for the past few days I realised that I’m very lucky. Being surrounded by alot of people who cared for me. They’re like always hidden. Very passive ones. They are:

"Just like stars,which only comes out at the night when you feel lonely to keep you company. But they’re always there regardless or day or night. It’s not as though I don’t know their existences. I know they are there. But, I keep thinking of the day that’s why I didn’t managed to see them(stars)."

I don’t know how to describe these feelings deep down in my heart. It’s something more than words could ever described. I recieved alot of presents and cards. And the present are so beautiful and I can see alot of effort being put in. Although, my birthday falls in Sunday which literally means that I will not see my poly mates but I felt as though Friday 250507 was my birthday. They bought me cakes and their cards really touches me. For these, I didn’t expect at all. I went to school have a dampened heart on friday. It just superly sian to go school. Well, I thought I wasn’t anything in their(friends) life, but after I read what they wrote. I feel that I do played a part in their life. I’m so happy. I hoped this little part of me which I ever played in your life, you guys will never forget about me.

It’s just fated how we all come to a cross road and met each other. Out of so many courses in Ngee Ann, we choosed nursing and got in. That’s how we met each other. It was short but sweet.

I remembered the first during year 1 of poly when school just started, no one in my class remembered my birthday at all. Except yiping. She gave me a birthday card. I was dammed touched sia. Don’t think she so thoughtful remembered hor. Just jokking. Well, she just happened to know from our class list or something like that. It was really touching at least someone remembers me. Lol. And shuxian after learning from yiping. She wanted to treat me a drink. Then I say no need. =P

HOWEVER! this year is alot different from year 1. So many people wish me happy birthday. Felt so blessed. After 2 years of poly life, I felt at least something. At least, I am happy before. Nah, wasn’t that bad lah. But just happy to meet a group or bunch of nice friends. If it wasn’t so much things in past 2 years, I guessed poly life is dammed enjoyable de. Lols. Erm, it’s just so many to thanks.Endless. Infinity gratitude to alot of people. I think you know who you are. =)

Anyway, dammed pissed off just now. I took a hard time to upload all my birthday pictures to friendster but accidentally clicked on refreshed all gone. Friendster only allows a max of 50 pictures to be upload on friendster per month. So I think gotta wait for next month then updated and upload more pics.-_-

P/s:Common test coming. Dammed stressed! =(

Kelly Rowland (featuring Nelly) - Dilemma

[Kelly Rowland]
I.. love you, and I.. need you
Nelly I.. love you, I do.. neeeeed you - but

[Chorus: Kelly Rowland]
No matter what I do, all I think about is you
Even when I’m with my boo, know you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do, all I think about is you
Even when I’m with my boo, y’know I’m crazy over you

[Nelly]
Check it, check it, check it, uhh
I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me
And uhh, she got the hots for me the finest thing my hood done seen
But oh no, oh no, she gotta a man
and a son, doh’ohhh, but that’s okay
Cause I, wait for my cue and just listen, play my position
Like a shortstop, pick up e’rything mami hittin
And in no time.. (no time) I..
I plan to make this wah-one mi-i-ne.. and that’s for sure
Cause I, I never been the type to, break up a happy home
But uh, there’s somethin bout baby girl I just can’t leave alone
So tell me ma what’s it gonna be? She said
(You don’t know what you mean to me)

[Chorus]

[Nelly]
Check it, check it, check it, uhh
I see a lot and you look and I never say a word
I know how niggaz start actin trippin out here about they girls
And there’s no way-ayy-hey, Nelly gon’ fight over
no day-hey-ame.. as you can see
But I, I like your steez, your style, your whole demeanor
The way you come through and holla and swoop me in his 2-seater
Now that’s gangstah-ah-ahhh..
And I got special ways to thank yah-ah-ahhh.. don’t you forget it
But uh, it ain’t that easy for you to pack and leave him
But uh, you and dirty got ties for different reasons
I respect that and right before I turn to leave, she said

[Chorus]

[Nelly] Sing it for me K

[Kelly Rowland]
I.. love you, and I.. need you
Nelly I.. love you, I do.. (c’mon girl)
And it’s more than you’ll.. ever know
But.. it’s fo’sho
You can always count on my love
Foreveeeeer more, yeahh-yeahh..

[Nelly]
East coast, I know you shakin right
Down South, I know you bouncin right
West coast, I know you walkom right, cause
Midwest, I see you swingin right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)

[Chorus]

[Nelly]
East coast, I know you shakin right
Down South, I know you bouncin right
West coast, I know you walkin right, cause
Midwest, I see you swing it right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
East coast, you still shakin right
Down South, I see you bouncin right
West coast, I know you walkin right, cause
Midwest, I see you swingin right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)

[Chorus]

[Nelly]
East coast, I know you shakin right
Down South, I know you bouncin right
West coast, I know you walkin right
Midwest, I see you swing it right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
East coast, you still shakin right
Down South, I see you bouncin right
West coast, I know you walkin right, cause
Midwest, I see you swingin right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)

I’m pretty proud of myself today. Lols. I went to library to obtain some informations and went to jog after Clinical Trial Tutorial alone.  I just hate it when my tutorial had to start at such a time - 8am to 9am. Can it be more lame timing?  Anyway, I didn’t miss the sales of uniform. Haha. If I missed again, don’t ever expect me to travel all the way to bedok to get it. Lols. And thanks for all the reminders from my friends (knowing the fact that I miss the sales of uniform their time). Dammed stressed. Everyone seems to be starting out with their project. But, I’m not. How? Sians.

Well, I went to the track and saw a group of primary school children training. I supposed they’re young atheletics or from track & field. No choice, got to let them had the track first. I waited like 20 minutes. Staring into the vastless sky, occasionally with my eyelids closed. Super ultraly tired.  After they rest, my turn to get down to the track. I ran 2 round plus and was like dammed tired. Lousy me. Then I continue my distance outside Ngee Ann. As I run, I feel terribly stomach cramp. Then I sped-walk. Lols. Then make my way back from canteen 2 backgate and when I’m back. I jogged another round before Sport & Wellness adminstrator use the track.

Well, I think I’m pretty independent man. People always asked: "You alone?". Haha. They are pretty surprised by the fact that I do things by myself. Come to think about it. Everyone does their own things. We cannot have friends and loves one by our side every moment and every minutes. I realised that this is part of growing up since entering Ngee Ann. Learning to acheive or complete gives task and gaols is never a miss thing in part of growing adults. If you realised that you hadn’t really done anything by your own, its time to do it. Sooner or later, you know what I mean. Or maybe I should say I’m just used to it unknowingly.

P/s:Things came sooner for me. So that I’m well prepared. =)

Michael Jackson - You’re Not Alone

Another day has gone
I’m still all alone
How could this be
You’re not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
But you are not alone

‘Lone, ‘lone
Why, ‘lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I’ll come runnin’
And girl you know that I’ll be there
I’ll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you’re far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we’re far apart
You’re always in my heart

For you are not alone…

P/s: Yes.Is just that I’m still alone afterall.

Okay.This song is like many years ago by Michael Jackson. Well, although there is many negative reports about him. But, I still think he is forever great to me. He a forever shinning superstar in my heart. Lols. I just find it nice and wanted to share with you guys. Okay lah. I’m a retro person okay? Can I? Blah.

Lately, I had not been feeling well. I caught a influenza. The signs & symptoms make me feel terrible. Heavy & painful sinuses or cavities filled with all excretion(mucous & phelgm). Sore throat with no voice. Kao. What could have been worst to me is that I’ve no voice?!

Literally, means that I cannot sing. Dammed depressing. I couldn’t imagine one day I have total lost of voice. I rather die. It was since like 2 weeks ago, but had not been recovering from it. Perhaps, I didn’t let my body rest well enough. I terribly deprived of sleep but it just keeps going on. Everyday is full of activities. I shopped. I had sleep-over at my friends house. I played badminton and of course running and gyming. Also, chilling out at starbucks. Lols. It was like in Year 3 that I had such a time really to engaged in this kind of activities. Life was never like these before. Just don’t wanna let go every moment. Woot! Anyway, it’s good to sweat man.

Well, just the thought of PRCP makes me sick. I don’t know if I could make it. Just don’t wanna think about it.

Micheal Buble - Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
‘Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

Okay. This song has been quite awhile already. Lol. It’s Micheal Buble - Home. Let me ask you guys a questions. Have you ever wonder exactly where is your home? Is it the one that you’ve been staying in whereby your daily neccessities will be met? Or Is it the one that have your loves ones (like Papa and Mama) in?

My home is not the place I stay in. My home belongs to my heart.Only in that home, I find bliss and peaceful. It’s a long journey to my home. I was like a bird. Flying around all day long. Soar above the sky, searching for a piece of colourful kite. At the end of the day, when I’m tired. I will fly back to my home. No matter how tired am I, I’ll be dragging the weary body of mine back to the very home of mine. That’s the place where I enjoy the triumph over things that happen on the day. =)

P/s:You’ll be able to enter my home if you know me well…